I don’t know who she is, where he met her, if she matters, if he cares, or what she is to him but I don’t want to see it. I feel like he’s shoving things in my face and that is absurd. It’s a f*king virtual world where there is nothing to interpret! I cannot keep subjecting myself to his immaturity and ass hole tenancies.

I. am. done.

Dear Boy,

Three months ago I was nearly certain we could have made a wonderful life together—a girlish dream perhaps, but a legitimate thought nonetheless. And with the right timing, maybe that could have been. Today, a sad thought dawned on me: I was a rebound. Timing was not on our side. Everyday I have thought about you, been concerned for you, hoped and prayed for you. Clearly, not the best use of my time.

For the last four years, as you mentioned, you dedicated yourself to that girl—catering to her needs and putting your life on hold. While others were building friendships and looking introspectively, you were in a state of limbo. Not only did it affect your ability to grow and mature, but her actions caused deep emotional scaring. For that, I am very sorry.

Now you must regain those years. You are right; it is your turn to be selfish. You are just awakening to life. If I do the math, four years in one relationship and two in another, that makes six, which puts you at about 17. Since you were 17 you were in two serious relationships, both equally destructive from what you have shared. Obviously the past is behind us and you cannot reverse time. Now all that remains is your ability to recover, mature and move forward.

I am thankful you recognize this fact and were considerate enough to end our relationship before it got too serious. Unfortunately for me, I did not guard my heart and as a fool, fell hard and fast. At then end, when you asked for my friendship, I was willing to do anything to not see you face your troubles alone. I wanted to be your friend desperately, even if it meant more pain and heartache for me. I remembered what you said when we first started dating, that even if it did not work out, you wanted to remain close friends. The best and worst things in life are unpredictable. Neither of us had the foresight to prevent what became inevitable.

Friendship goes both ways. It cannot exist with out two people contributing equal effort. Clearly, this is not a possibility. Negating any excuse of differing ideas of friendship and time investment—you are unable to be a friend to me and therefore, I cannot be yours.

I wish you all the best in your endeavors and pray that you continue to grow and flourish. May God bless you and your family.

Goodbye Boy.

[include poem]

While before I saw the man in you,
I now see the other side.
The man is but a boy;
afraid, unsure, and crying out.
You don’t come crying to me.
You sit alone in your corner,
cowering and helpless;
refusing an out-stretched hand.
I wish you would let me in
but I can only watch at a distance.

Well, goodbye distance.
For distance only exists
if there are two points.
And now there is one.
I can watch no longer.
I can wait no longer.
My mind makes me angry,
demanding my heart.
But it is time.

You made me laugh the most.
I have never cried so hard.

Farewell sweet boy—
may you grow up to be the man I knew.

BOO TO YOU.

I hope you think I have a date and I hope it HURTS.

KISS MY *HOT* ASS!

Complete this sentence: A best friend is someone ___________ .

Or, if you are feeling extra creative, just free form it.

My wandering mind began to wonder: what happens to all of those things said when you are dating someone? Do they just disappear? Are they zapped from the air and simply cease to exist? What happens?

Everyone says things. Don’t be shy. Admit it. You’ve said to a former [insert gender here]friend how they are the most wonderful person you have ever met, how no one has ever been as amazing, how you hope to spend your life with them, how much you love them and will always, how you’ll never     fill in the blank     , etc. You too have heard the same. So I ask, do these still have meaning? Significance? Or are they truly sweet nothings?

I do my best to refrain from using absolutes when in a relationship. Always, never, forever, and ever, etc. are the adverse adverbs. I need not explain why. Why dumped you a month ago. Why cheated on you. Why walked out the door and didn’t look back, ever. Why doesn’t love you anymore. Why doesn’t bother.

So what comes of these said things?

My recent stalk is a boy I once knew. I say that like it’s been years but it’s only been 28 days. He has made it clear that he does not have the time to invest in a relationship, of any kind. Requested my friendship he did, then refused to invest the time of day. Now, given, he is quite busy and stressed and I have fully accepted he is not in a good place and should not be in a romantic relationship. Fine. However, as I was performing my daily stalking rituals, I saw one of his girl friends posted on his wall saying how fun it was to see him this past weekend. Funny. Huh…he must have found time for his other friends. He goes out on the weekends regularly but could not spend an hour to talk face-to-face two weeks ago and address our friendship, or lack there of when HE was the one who wanted a friend. I’m sorry. This FBOOK stalker bitch ain’t no one way friend.

If you’re on your knees begging, remember this: you gotta give to receive.